WHY DID MY RECESS WEEK JUST FLEW BY LIKE THIS T_____________T
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Right now I am reviewing the persuasive speech which I am going to showcase on 10 March. Taking account of the feedback that Miss Cardoza had given me, I am going to edit it and present a new version on that day. Gonna get this done by today so at least I have about 2 weeks to practise!
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HAPPY NEWS: Received an e-mail informing me that I have gotten accepted for being part of a volunteering event in NUS! The happier news is that Sheryl would be joining me for this XD
I can't wait!
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Met up with yiqun to study yesterday. But other than studying, we played bball, played stress, watched less than half a movie, and eat. It was quite fun haha. He is such a noob at playing stress but somehow he can always find the chance to "stress" me and make me lose. Lol!
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Went to work today - Natalie's and Celine's tuition.
Celine and her family is going to move to Shanghai soon T___T gonna miss them. They are such lovelies.
Been so long ever since I met these crazy, bubbly and as usual nonsense as ever peeps from secondary school :P
We had lots of fun eating the fried chicken, potato wedges and maggi and talking to one another as well as playing "stress" and "in between."
It was so funny - the way the game was like. I'm basically the one who always throw in all my money and say "ALL IN" and either win a lot or lose a lot.
Cheryl is the one who would be like, "20cent only" "20cent only k" hahahaha, as usual her pattern :p
Belle is one whom I don't know why ended up losing until left so little money and qihang kept giving her chances. LOL.
In the end we just said, let's not care about the money and call it a game. XD
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22 Feb 2016
Went to school to finish about 6-7 psychology research participatory experiments for my PL1101 at one shot; headed to work; came back home; studied with qihang
:P
23 Feb 2016
Planned up a list of things I gotta do today, let's be productive, GOGOGO.
Thanks to a friend who helped me to reduce the word count and edited it together - doing the news story doesn't feel stressful at all. In fact it was quite fun hahaha.
I'm sure many people heard that cliche saying before, "Time heals everything."
It sounded like total nonsense when I heard that at times I was hurt badly.
Now, though some parts of me still remain skeptical about it, this saying is starting to get into me. Don't stop believing
I always told myself that, until now.
Recently, I'm learning psychology stuff from a module I am taking.
Something intrigued me when I was studying for this.
For so many years, I always thought that one major flaw about human brains are that we tend to forget things after some time. I also thought that If we could be like computers/robots and remember everything, we would be all geniuses who can rule the world.
However, evolutionary psychology taught us that - Psychologists believe that humans are always "retaining the best traits and eliminating the bad ones" via natural selection process.
So over the long history of how humans' brains have been able to develop to become better and better, why hasn't our memory banks be one of the aspects that evolve as well?
Many psychologists have come up with numerous theories to explain why human's poor memory benefits us and hence is retained throughout our species so far.
One of the particular reasons:
Motivated Forgetting
Sometimes, we may actively work to forget memories, especially those of traumatic or disturbing events or experiences. The two basic forms of motivated forgetting are: suppression, a conscious form of forgetting, and repression, an unconscious form of forgetting.
This brings me back to recall how so many times I tried to avoid remembering those memories... And as time passed...
I found out that time and context changed everything.
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Though forgetting has its limits.
There will always be times like this - Missing you sweetheart
Ever since I started this sem with lectures as early as 8am on Wednesdays... I have been suffering from insomnia on Tuesdays' night.
I think it is a psychological thing...
I kept telling myself, "I need to sleep early, I need to sleep early, I need to wake up at 6a.m. Do not study. Do not do anything else. Need to wake up at 6 a.m. tomorrow. Sleep early. Sleep now."
And I'll go rolling on bed for hours.. and finally get up to do things until I feel physically too tired and catch about 1~2 hours of sleep before heading to school.
It is already week 6 of school and this cycle has happened repeatedly for 6 weeks... And only on Tuesdays. :-(
Was talking to my mum today and she told me that she thinks that I have changed a lot ever since sweetheart has passed on. She said I seemed to laugh a lot much more often and never get angry at all.
This brings me to agree with this quote:
Went to work today and came back to finish up some assignments and did studying til now.
Gonna sleep now! Nights~ =D
This morning I got woken up by my little bro claiming that he was hungry.
So I went down to the market to buy some healthy ingredients to cook for him. I also bought a watermelon which he dislikes and wasted it :( At least he ate the meal I prepared for him though >:(
He had been sick for about 3-4 days now. One thing about my mother is that she cares for him a lot - kept waking up every few hours to check his temperature, bring him to see doctor, make him eat medicine at the right timings..
But she doesn't really care about what he is really putting into his stomach. She even lets him eat pineapple tarts and ba gua! >____<
Luckily, today he just recovered.
BUT. I just returned home only to find out that mama and bro have gone back to their own home because it became my little sis's turn to fall sick...So mama has to go back to attend to her. She is currently running a fever. Sigh...
With all these going on, my mum is one who is suffering the most. She is hardly taking a rest and she has to work.
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After going for a short 1.5 hour tuition, I came back home to prepare for an outing organized by NUS ODAC - a cycling event from East Coast Park to Marina Barrage + picnic + some games
(I specially changed one of my tuition sessions on Saturday to Monday for this.)
I joined it because I wanted to have a "feel" of making friends through interactive activities/games. I feel that the friends I make in my school are mostly in a very stressful context because either we have to work as a group to solve a problem or we have to work together for projects which would determine our grades. And I didn't like it.
Who would be in the mood to know about one another when what we are supposed to focus is on the work/project we are doing? Yeah... So I decided to give this event a try.
While I only managed to know some acquaintances here and there (as expected), I still thoroughly enjoyed myself.
Here is a short video I took when I was cycling in tandem with Fabian!
The route from ECP to Marina Barrage is sooooo awesome right!!!!!!!!
I really don't mind going there every weekend just to do this if I could.
In one of the games, I was supposed to be blindfolded and touch the guys' arms and select Fabian out of all the guys there.
And you know what.....
I CHOSE CORRECTLY IN MY FIRST TRY! Hahaha. So unbelievable. I'm still surprised until now.
Oh yes!!! And picnic at Marina Barrage was so relaxing.
When I lay down on the mat and just stare at the sky.... I feel so calm and happy for some reasons.. =D
One of the best things today - unexpected fireworks from our view there!
I remembered someone called Hayden, the event organiser was like saying "We prepared this firework for all of you," and I'm laughing at what he said because obviously it was not true but it was funny how he credited it to the organising team. LOL.
Anyway... it is 3.20a.m. now.. I'm gonna head to bed soon and study tomorrow.
Might need to head to mum's place to take care of sis if she is still sick.
Went to teach a tuition session today.
And then headed to gym - to study, and then took part in a spinning class. (Since another tuition was cancelled)
Was doing my CL2220 translating document there.
Had dinner at Bugis, shopped a while and went home.
Missing mama, bro and sis so much, especially mama.
Gotta focus May....STUDY!
NM2220 assignment 1 is not progressing well T________T
Having really hard days recently despite it is CNY.
Had a close shave with death today because of two reckless drivers...
Went to mom's place and told her if anything happens to me suddenly, rent out the house I'm staying and earn about 1k plus rental fees to 养老 so I can leave in peace．
Can I sustain in doing well in my studies
Continue working
Join a CCA
Be healthy
Eat well
Sleep well
Exercise regularly
Have time with family
Have time with friends
No matter how I think and how I try to plan out, it seems impossible :(
CL2280's lectures/tutorial isn't really helping me to gain any knowledge about translation. Most of the things I'm learning are through my self-study by finding my own resources. I'm really disappointed in this module. Tutor in NM2220 is really strict. Many of the questions I asked her were rebutted with the same answer - "Find the answers yourself." And then I'd be spending hours away thinking of solutions. Mostly empty solutions. Her tutorials are fast-paced and straight-to-business. It's a steep learning curve going for her lessons. But I'm struggling with my assignment with a whole list of questions I am supposed to find "solutions" myself!!! :( I gave up going for PL1101e lectures since the 2 hours really can be better spent studying the textbook. GER1000 so far is very interesting to me. I like what I'm learning there and I like to think about how to apply those things that are learnt. Lots of math/technical stuff - something that is lacking in my modules since all my modules are mostly "language" related. Enjoying NM2101 so far. Tutorials are a breeze since not much preparations are needed in advance but i still try to prepare before going.
Discovered a gem place near my house - 24H HANS!!!!!!! My love <3
Gonna be camping there frequently to study :P
CNY break is a great time to catch up with all the studying I have been missing out due to work commitments -
Just called up Ministry of Health, Chiropractic Association, Dr Prem Pillay's clinic to request for interview with regards to my follow-up article.
They told me to write in with some of the sample questions instead. And I did.
Now I just have to patiently wait for their responses.
First time I'm taking the role of a "journalist" - felt stressed instead of "refreshing" because I am too worried about the deadline. I mean, what if they reject me?
I would perhaps need to turn to others or start a new follow-up article instead.
It isn't that easy to start on a new article counting in the fact that I would need to research on all the backlogs on the content of the new article to find out what are the new perspectives I can cover and what are the old perspectives I should not cover again. Interview questions need a lot of elaborate thinking too.
Now I'll just keep my fingers crossed and pray for the best.
Honestly I could have chosen a simpler article to do a reaction piece to it - since it is only worth 10% of our grade.
But I guess it's just me. Something in me that always tells me that If I am going to spend efforts doing something, then I should spend my utmost best to doing it to produce something more impactful and useful.
Recently I have been feeling sick and today I feel a lot better - maybe because I had a good sleep!
I made a promise to myself that I must treat "sleeping" as something that I must "do" just like how I "eat", "bathe" etc. I have a tendency to put everything and anything above sleeping, which is why my health is so bad now.
Off to do household chores before I continue on my assignments - till then! >:)
